Title: Letters to Dana Author: Erin M. Blair E-Mail: eblair@sonic.net Classification: VRA--Vignette, Romance, Angst. Content: Mulder/Scully Romance. Mulder and Scully POV. Alternative Universe. Character Death. Spoiler: Gethesmane. One Breath. The Field Where I Died. Rating: PG. Archive: Anywhere, especially to Gossamer. All others, please let me know where this story is going so I can visit it. =) Please forward to ATXC. Disclaimer: The characters of Fox Mulder and Dana Scully aren't mine as they belong to Chris Carter, 1013 Productions, and the FOX network. No infringement is intended. Author's Note: This is a prequel to "Without My Soulmate" and "I Have No One". You don't have to to read the others if you don't want to do so. All you need to know is that it takes place in two different universes. In both universes, there will be a character death. I'm not saying who. This is a Mulder/Scully Romance story. It has UST, DAL, and RST! Great for shippers, but not for NoRomos. Feedback: Greatly appreciated and welcomed. Since I do have a problem with grammar, I am in need of kind, constructive criticism. With the feedback, I hope to become a better writer. I need all the help that I can get. Special Thanks/Dedications: To my friends and my new beta readers for support and for their help. All of you are great. For the people who had been reading my stories, thank you. I also dedicate this one to David Duchovny and Gillian Anderson who gave Mulder and Scully a soul. Summary: Mulder writes a letter to Scully in two very different universes with different outcomes which leaves the other to pick up the pieces. -------------------------------------- LETTERS TO DANA Written by: Erin M. Blair -------------------------------------- Alternate Universe #1 After talking to Kritschau and Scully about how I was led to believe that everything that I believed in was a hoax, I knew what I had to do. I had to end it. Once and for all. Everything I believed in... It was all hoax. They had made *me*. I am going to make certain that they won't do anything to me ever again. Scully. I wonder what her reaction to my death will be. Selfishly, I hoped that she wouldn't move on, but I know she will. I love her so much, and I want to be with her. I know how she felt after the Melissa Ephresian case. "Scully, if you weren't my soulmate, how come I feel this cosmic bond, that we'll be together?" I took out a piece of paper and a pen, I began to write. * * * Alternate Universe #2 I had watched her walking into the X-Files Basement Office with my sister, Samantha, after a long case. I was coming back from profiling a serial killer, but I wanted to see her. I could never get the nerve to tell her how much I felt towards her. I whispered her name from a distance. "Dana." That's what people call her. My sister told me that she prefers to be called by her first name. I once tried calling her Scully, but she told me that no one calls her that. No one even calls her Agent Scully. I don't know why but she feels that she doesn't deserve respect. Why? She deserves to be respected. She deserves to be loved. After the name incident, I called her "Dana" all the time. She's more than "Dana" to me, she is also "Scully." She's independent, nice, loving, and she's special. I am willing to give her all the love and the respect that she deserves. I am willing to tell how much I love her. I do love her. Although I don't really know her, I know that she's my soulmate. I don't know how I know, but I do. I took out some paper and a pen. I decided to write her a letter. I will place it on her desk tomorrow. "You will know how much I love you, Dana." I began to write. * * * Alternate Universe #1 Dear Scully, I know that finding me dead will become a shock for you, but I want to tell you how I feel towards you. I love you, Dana Scully. I had loved you ever since you walked into my life. Lately I have noticed that ever since you found out that I wasn't your soulmate, you seem to be withdrawing >from me. I can tell how much you love me. I know how much this case had hurt you. Even though I believe that my time here on Earth is over, I know that we are meant to be together. Forever. My soul wants to be with your soul. I know your soul wants to be with mine. We have this cosmic bond that time nor distance can overcome. We are soulmates, Scully. I know we are, and I know that we will find each other. You will know when we will meet. Believe me. Yours, Mulder * * * Alternate Universe #2 I was sitting at my sister's desk when I wrote the letter to her. I wanted the letter to be short but sweet. Here's what I wrote: "Dear Dana, The reason why I am writing this letter to you is that I love you. I had always loved you from afar ever since I had met you at my sister Samantha's apartment. For some reason, I believe that we are soulmates. I would like to see you as soon as possible. Yours, Fox." I put the letter in an envelope marked "Dana" on it, and I placed it on her desk. I hope that she sees it. I hope that she knows how much I love her. Samantha walked into the office. "Fox, what are you doing here?" "I wanted to give Dana something," I replied, as I was looking at her "I Want To Believe" poster. "Samantha, do you believe?" "In what?" Samantha asked. She was sitting at her desk. "Soulmates," I replied. "Do you believe in soulmates, Samantha?" "For a minute there, I thought that you are going to ask about aliens. Yes, I do believe in the idea of soulmates," Samantha replied. "I know Dana is mine," I replied. Samantha looked at her watch, and sighed. "What is it?" I asked. "She hasn't called me yet. She knows I will be here," Samantha replied. "I better check on her at the apartment." "I'll go with you," I answered. I was worried about Dana. Something must have happened to her. I hope that she will read the letter... * * * Alternate Universe #1 I entered Mulder's apartment, and I found a letter addressed to me on the coffee table beside his dead body. "Mulder, why?" I know that he was distraught over what Kritschau had told him. I hadn't thought that he would be kill himself. I called the paramedics and the Arlington Police to tell him the love of my life shot himself to death. I picked up the letter, and I begin to read. Mulder admitted in the letter that he loves me, and he had come to believe that I am his true soulmate. "You don't have a chance with me. You remember what had happened in Apison, Tennessee? I know you remember Melissa Ephesian." * * * Alternate Universe #2 I can't believe that what had happened to Dana. When we entered her apartment, there was glass and blood everywhere. Samantha told me about the hostage crisis that she had helped negotiated. This Duane Barry was holding people hostage, and he somehow found out about Dana... She's dead now. He had given my Dana to them. Whoever they are. I am sure that they had done terrible things to her. She told Samantha in the hospital that she wanted to die because of what they had done to her. She still looked like she was before with her shoulder-length auburn hair and blue-green eyes. I don't know what procedures that she was under, but something hurt her soul. My soul. They took her away from me. She died when both Samantha and I were in the room. She never read the letter. * * * Alternate Universe #1 I couldn't get to sleep last night. Mulder's words flowed in my head. <"You are my soulmate, Scully."> "That's not true," I said, aloud. I knew that no one can hear me, but how come I feel as though someone knows exactly how I feel. The loneliness. The emptiness. The despair. I decided to pay my respects at Mulder's grave. I need to be with him. * * * Alternate Universe #2 I was at her grave. I couldn't believe that we would never get the chance to know each other. "Why have they taken you away from me?" I asked myself. "Why?" There were so many lost moments between us. So many lost conversations. "I know that you care for me, Dana. Samantha told me that. I wish that we had a chance to be with each other. They should have never taken you." I fingered the lettering on her grave. Somehow, someone told me in my head that she will be there for me once more. I want to believe. * * * Alternate Universe #1 I lay down the flowers at Mulder's grave. The tears were flowing down my face. I still couldn't believe that he's gone. I sensed that he's still with me deep within my soul. I can hear his voice in my head once more. <"Believe me, Scully."> "I want to believe you, Mulder. I know what I saw in Apison, Tennessee. Melissa is your soulmate. I'm not. How can we be together again?" Your voice seems to answer my question again. <"You will know when we meet. Believe me."> I want to believe. * * * Transferring of Alternate Universes I walked into the bar, feeling depressed over Dana's death. They tell me that time heals all wounds, but they are wrong. I want to die. I ordered a vodka, and I downed it as though there is no tomorrow. I heard a voice. Dana? "May I sit here?" she asked. "Sure," I reply. "I am feeling awfully lonely, and I have no one." "Sounds like my day," she replied. She looked up at me, and whispered, "Mulder?" "Dana?" I whispered, as I looked at her features. Her china doll features with her blue-green eyes and her auburn hair. She was beautiful. "Is it really you?" I paused. "Are you Dana Scully?" "Yes," she replied. "Last time I checked, I'm Dana Scully." "It is you. I thought that I lost you forever." "You are really Fox Mulder," Dana replied. I nodded. "You haven't lost me," she smiled. Her eyes were misty with the unshed tears. "I knew that I would see you again." "How did you know?" I asked. She smiled softly, and she replied. "I just knew." I cupped her face, and gazed into her blue-green eyes. Then I pulled her into a warm embrace. I could feel her heartbeat. She's really here. She's really in my arms. "I love you, Dana," I murmured in her shoulder-length auburn hair. "I love you too," Dana replied, as our lips were touching. Do I dare to kiss her? Yes. Do I want to kiss her? Yes, with all of my passion. With the sudden sexual tension which flared between us, I kissed her. She didn't seem to be startled when I kissed her. She turned away from me, and I wondered what's wrong. "Is everything all right?" "Yes," she smiled, as she gazed into my eyes. "I'm all right. I couldn't believe that this is really happening." She paused. "You and I belong together, Fox." "We certainly do," I answered. End of Story.