Title: Kiss Goodbye Author: dayflow Email: dayflow@hotmail.com Disclaimer: as long as it says I don't own 'em and I ain't making any $$$, it's kewl... Rating: G Classification: V, MSR Spoilers: if you haven't seen that 'shippy moment in the movie trailers or promos... where have you been? ;-) Summary: what Mulder's thinking before he kisses Scully Feedback: BEGGING!!! PLEADING!!! dayflow@hotmail.com Archive: go for it gossamer! :-) NOT ATXC! I'll post it there myself. Author's Note: okay... i came up w/ this at work and got it to paper as soon as i got home. and i had to get this done before the movie... so no one's proofread it, i didn't check for spelling or grammar or nothin'! so if you're gonna flame me, go for it! at least it's mail! and if i get enough feedback, *maybe* i'll revise it. :-) PS. rule 'o denial #2. If you think you saw a kiss, then you did see a kiss. I saw a kiss. *~*~*~*~* She's leaving me. She quit the FBI and now she's leaving me. I don't blame her. She lost her daughter, her sister. She was abducted, given cancer, made sterile. All because of me. Can she see the pain, guilt, and heartache I feel? Can she see my regret at never having kissed her or made love to her? Does she know how much she means to me? Does she know that she is my savior, my strength, my truth, my love? I cup her cheek with my hand, trying to convey all of this in that one touch. "Dana, I-" "Shhh." she interrupts, imitating my caress. It takes all my strength to not turn my head and kiss her palm. "I know." She does know. I can see in her eyes the brightness of her love, dulled by the pain and regret she feels. But this is something that she - that *we* - must do. We must be apart so that we can't be used against each other. We must be apart to find our own truths. She deserves better than this, a life filled with danger and lies. She deserves a family, a home, happiness. Something I cannot give. But I can give her, and myself, this one moment. I slowly close the distance between us and kiss her softly. It is not passionate, but sweet. Delicate, yet intense. It is a kiss that says "I'll always love you." It is our first, last, and only kiss. It is a kiss that is meant to last forever. It is a kiss goodbye. I feel her whisper "I love you" against my lips, but before I can respond in kind, she pulls away and is gone. Leaving me alone, bereft, and missing her touch. I lean against the wall, letting the nothingness consume me. What now? My love is gone. My life is gone. I've kissed it all away. The End