Title: The Gift
Author: Nancy Espinosa
Rating: PG
Spoilers: Post-requiem
Summary. Scully's life changes...for the second time.
Author's Notes: I was thinking how CC will start the next season. Scully with 
a big belly?, Scully already with a baby? or maybe with a grown kid?, this is 
an alternative.
E-mail: nancye_2000@yahoo.com

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The Gift
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Met you underneth the moon, 
Night was over much too soon, 
We shared a kiss till daylight came, 
And kissed the night goodbye, 
When the sun came up that day, 
We smiled and went our separate ways, 
But I can't leave the thought of you behind.
*****
You Stay with Me, Ricky Martin

She opened her eyes when her mother opened the curtains and the first 
sunbeams peeked through her window.  She placed her hand on her belly.  Her 
flat belly now.  It was a beautiful morning.  She could tell from the bed 
where she laid.  Today was a special day.  It was the beginning of a new 
period of her life.  

The night before she gave birth to her son.  Their son.  A beautiful, healthy 
baby boy.She could not hide the happiness and joy her heart felt.  Every pore 
of her body irradiated that happiness, her eyes sparkled like stars on the 
darkened sky.  But not everything was happiness.  Her heart also hurt. It 
kept hurting since that day. He still was gone.  It had been seven months 
since he disappeared.  How could he do this to her? For the first weeks she 
was angry, she asked herself why she let him go, why? She knew, both knew 
that maybe he would not come back.  He was selfish.  First she thought he was 
trying to protect her from the abduction, but when she thought about it, she 
realized he didn't want to deal with her absence again, he didn't want to 
feel the pain and guilt again and he chose to be the one gone and let her 
here, alone, to be her the one with the pain.  And he knew she would look for 
him, she would do everything to find him, but what, what could she do in her 
condition? she obviously wasn't to board a rocket or a ship and go looking 
for him in outerspace.  In fact if that was what she had to do to bring him 
back. she would do it.

And as the time went by, she wasn't angry anymore. She knew someday he will 
came back, but when?, that was the question she was afraid to ask. She looked 
for him the first months, but her condition made it difficult.  Then she had 
to stop looking.  And the guilt started to grow inside her, just as her baby. 
 She never knew how her pregnancy was possible, the tests they made revealed 
nothing,  it seemed just as she always was a fertile woman.  She spent all 
her pregnancy in Mulder's apartment, she wanted to be near him in a certain 
way, although she knew he was always with her just as she was with him. Yes, 
he didn't go alone, she went with him.  A part of her hangs in his neck.  A 
reminder of her.  Her strenght and beliefs are with him wherever he is.

First, she placed a craddle in his bedroom next to his bed.  It was the same 
she and her brothers had as babies.  Her mother kept it in the attic for her 
grandchildren. Matthew didn't need it, Tara also kept her craddle and that 
was the one he had.  It was a beautiful craddle, almost an antiquity.  Made 
of pine wood, with a beautiful hand carve. How much she wanted to have Mulder 
near her, sharing with her those moments, expecting together the arrival of a 
little human being that was the coalition of a man and a woman who loved each 
other deeply and who certainly was going to change their lifes forever.  But 
it wasn't possible. And she was afraid he was going to miss it.  She was sure 
there wasn't gonna be another chance for them, for him to witness the miracle 
of the birth of a new life, the life of his son.

He missed it. Oh God, he missed it.  He's a father and he doesn't know it. Or 
he does? Is it possible for him to know what she's going through? She doesn't 
know. It's funny. Just exactly when they became lovers, he dissappears.  And 
in the most important moment of her life. She still can see her brother's 
Bill face when she told him she was pregnant.  "That sorry-son-of-a-bitch is 
the father!!, what kind of father he is? he left you?!! why I'm not 
surprised?, how typical of him!!" She didn't even bother to tell him how 
everything happened. He won't understand.  He won't believe it.

And she's scared. So scared. She's not alone, her mother is with her. But 
it's not the same as if Mulder were here.  She's afraid this little baby 
stops her for keep looking for his daddy. It's a huge responsability to take 
care of a baby and more when you're a single woman without a man at your 
side.  But most of all, she's afraid of never find him.  She can't bare the 
sensation in her chest at this thought.  She HAS to find him.  Not only for 
her, but for her son.  He has to know his father.  He has to know the amazing 
father she got for him.  A father who is passionate and protective of what he 
most loves, a father with strong beliefs, and it doesn't matter it these 
beliefs are reasonable or not, it just shows the strong values and strong 
education he keeps within him.  A father who will give his life in order to 
keep safe and alive what he loves and what he believes in. She WILL find him. 
Or maybe HE will find her. After all, the gold cross in his chest, that 
little part of her that he keeps close to his skin, always, always returns 
with her owner.  And this will be no exception.

"I know you'll come back, and I'll be right here, waiting, and I'm not alone 
anymore, hurry, I have a gift for you, the same gift you left me without 
knowing. A little piece of you, a little piece of your heart and soul." 

I look inside the small cafés, 
And hope by chance I'll see your face, 
I hear your voice and realize, 
It's just the summer wind, 
Something in your eyes that night, 
Swept away this heart of mine, 
Now I just want you in my arms again.  
How was I to know in that one night, 
My whole life would change, 
>From the moment I looked in your eyes, 
I've never been the same, 
And if I could have one chance to have that 
Moment back again, 
I'd never let it end, I'd never let it end. 
****
You Stay With Me, Ricky Martin

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I'm really looking forward for the next season, It'll be very interesting see 
how they develop the show without Mulder and a Scully looking for him, 
without the on-screen chemistry we all love to see between the two, but I 
know when he finally returns it'll be very shippy, I can't wait.  Comments:  
nancye_2000@yahoo.com
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