Title: "Freedom"
Author: Nancy Espinosa
Rating: PG
Spoilers: Closure
Summary. Someone watched Mulder and Scully all the time and they didn't know, 
they would never know.
Author's Notes: I saw for the third time Closure and I realized that the most 
important part of the show was Mulder looking for Samantha, but now that they 
gave us the end of that story, I think as Mulder got his closure, we all must 
leave the show to end, there's nothing left, in my point of view.  This 
episode was so touching, I was crying at the end the three times I saw it!! 
Mulder suffered a lot in all those years, it was so cruel when he saw his 
sister was dead all the time,  personally I didn't like that, because he 
wasted most of his life looking for something he would not find.  But at the 
end he accepted reality and let Samantha go.
E-mail: nancye_2000@yahoo.com

They don't know I have watched them since the beginning.  Of course not.  How 
could they know if I'm the object of their quest, of their search for the 
Truth.  A Truth that they found some time ago.  They saved the world and they 
don't know it. There's nothing left of the Project.  There's nothing  left to 
find.  He spent his whole life looking for me, without knowing that I'm not 
in the same world as he is.  I'm in the best place I've ever been.  No more 
suffering.  No more tests.  No more horror.  But I have to show him where I 
am, and that I'm fine, he needs it.  He needs to be happy, to go on with his 
life, he needs to accept his fate. She is his fate. They both have to face 
the reality.  It's over.

I have been with him since the "walkings" came for me.  I've watched him 
waste his life looking for me, always feeling guilty about what happened.  
And I couldn't tell him it wasn't his fault, I couldn't tell him to stop 
looking for me because he was so blind with guilt, with anger, he wanted so 
bad to believe and he couldn't sense me, sometimes I thought he was so 
paranoid, seeing things that weren't there. Then she entered in his life.  I 
was jealous at first because she was with him all the time and because at 
some point she became a very important part of his life, at the same level as 
me.  But then I realized she really cared about him, she loved him and she 
could give him the love and the attention he deserved, she * is * alive. She 
is his conscience, she's always guiding him to the right way, she's the 
logic's voice.

And I know she will always be with him, at his side, because although all the 
things that happen to her and to her family because of their quest, she never 
blame him.  Through the years I've seen the bond between them.  An 
unconditional trust, an unconditional faith, an unconditional friendship, an 
unconditional partnership, and an unconditional love.  Yes, love, like the 
one a man feels towards a woman and viceversa, but they are so focused in 
searching for the Truth and for me, that they can't see that love clearly.  
They've felt it, many times, but they shut down their eyes and turned their 
heads to look somewhere else, instead of looking in their hearts.  
The truth is * in * there.  In their hearts.  I truly believe this search 
only served to shut down the Project, but also to bring her to his side and 
give him the opportunity of a new life with her, the opportunity of feel love 
and feel loved.  I'm so grateful that he found her.  He only needed to find * 
her *, not me.  I wasn't lost, I was already saved.  But he, he was the lost 
one, but he needed her help to save himself.

Now, I'll show myself to him.  This is the end of the road.  Of their road in 
a search without sense.  But I hope this could be the beginning of their road 
together like a man and a woman, not the road they have walked in the past 
seven years like partners. I just hope when we finally met, he realize that 
is over. I'm sure he will.  He's tired. His soul needs to find peace, he 
needs to let me go. He needs his wound to heel.   I'm fine and protected. I'm 
safe from all the horrors I suffered with those men. I'm happy and I need him 
to be happy, to smile again.


We finally met. I never saw him smile like that when he saw all those little 
children, and when he saw me, his face was so peaceful, like always should 
have been.  He saw I am fine and safe.  It's over. Finally his soul is 
free....
 
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Just a little release for my soul.  I was so sad.  Comments: 
nancye_2000@yahoo.com
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