"Fear" Completed: April 20, 1996 Legal Stuff: I don't own the XFiles or the characters within the XFiles story. They are owned be Chris Carter, 10 -13 productions, Fox Broadcasting. No infringement intended. Don't sue me. The following is for the distribution & entertainment of EMXC members only. Any further distribution w/out my permission is not a good thing. If you ask, I'll say yes. If you saw this story somewhere else ---- um, I'm at a loss. That'll never happen. Summary: Short conversation piece between Mulder and Scully about what she fears most. It's not meant to be a relationship story, but what ever the relationshippers want to read into it.... any opinion is flattering. If you want to let me know what you think, please feel free to do so at Sondayp2@aol.com. Rated: PG -- I think? She remembered the conversation too well. Even now it was hard to think back without aknowledging things hidden deep. Damn him for making her feel, to go inside the fear and guilt she used as her sheild. He knew it. He understood it. It started out innocent enough. Normal light badgering. She should have known he was after something deeper. He always was. He could be unrelenting that way. She could still feel him gripping her wrists as she tried to pull away, never hurting, but insistant as he sat across from her at the table. ----------------- I'm sure it wasn't a girly scream, Mulder but c'mon admit it. You are afraid of bugs. Ok, ok but quid pro quo Scully. What? What, what. What are "you" afraid of. No let me guess. A bad date? No, actually ...... I'm fearless. Fear - Less. Less afraid of what Scully? I really want to know. What do you fear? Dark? Everyone's afraid of something at some point Mulder. Most people develope during their growing up years different coping mechanisms for the things that may cause someone anxiety. Every child experiences fear of some kind. Real and imagined fear from separation anxiety to the fictional boogie man. Such a clinical analysis just to let me know you secretly fear the boogie man. Mulder, I just meant to say..... I know what you "meant" to say, and you are avoiding my main question. It's your coping mechanism kicking in full force. Intellectualize it and "it" will go away. Place every aspect of your life in neat rational scientific terms. That's not true..... I ..... You.... what. You cant't admit your own fear because that would mean you'd have to give up some of your control. Look at me and tell me that isn't the case here. Let go of my wrists, Mulder No. I'm taking away your escape, Scully. I'm not giving you an out this time. I'm taking control. Is that what you fear? Loss of control? Or does it go deeper than that? Let go, Mulder. No. What do you want from me. I'm sorry, I couldn't hear you. What did you say...... Mulder - just Stop. Let me go. No Scully, Stop struggling and look at me. You trust me. I know you do. You hate losing control. You are afraid of being trapped. Or do you want to be trapped? What the hell is that supposed to mean? A reaction from the composed special agent Dana Scully? Maybe you fear lack of composure. But, wait. Isn't that the same as being out of control? So tell. Why are you so in need of this control? What are you afraid of? Mulder..... just....... I keep running and running because if I stop, I'm afraid I won't be able to hold onto myself. Is that what you wanted to hear? Scully......... son of a bitch, Scully. Listen to me and listen carefully. You do not have to run alone, but that has to be your choice. Do you understand? ----------------------- He had said more. Down talking it was called. She had been shaky with the intensity of revealing a part of herself. It was only a small part. A crack in a wall she built. The End. Author's Note: There is such a thing called "down talking". It is used to calm a person when he or she is anxious or upset.