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Authors note:  Feedback would be wonderful.  This is my  take on what
happens when Mulder finally tells Scully  about the vial of ova he took
and the knowledge he has of  her being barren.  No romance warning
needed.  I love the  shippers but I suck at writing ship stuff. 
Shippers,  you are  free to see any UST implied. :)  !!!

Summary:  Conversation between Mulder and Scully about  the vial he took
from the Lombard clinic.

Spoilers: Thru Season 5.   
Rated: PG 
Title:  Chains 
Date Complete:  11-16-97 
Author: Sondayp2@aol.com

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And if you loved me the And you never love me again I can  still hear you
saying We can never break the chain  "Rumors" Buckhingham/Nicks

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Each action committed carries the burden of consequence,  seen only in
hindsight. Once an action complete,  it seeks  its own path toward light
and knowledge.  We hold on to  this truth hoping that well intentions are
not victim to its  path.  Although tattered chains will occur in our
judgement  of eachother, we are foever certain of the common purpose 
which binds us.  We can never break the chain. 

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I see,  Mulder.  And what made you decide to tell me this  now?

It seemed like the right time.  You had...have a right to  know.  With
everything you were experiencing  I just  thought...

You thought?

You needed time, Scully.

What I needed, Mulder, was the truth.  

I had my reasons.  My intention was never to hide this from  you.  I only
thought to...

No, Mulder.  You didn't think.  Did you think this even  came as a shock
to me?  Did you think I don't know what  has been going on in my own
body?  What did you think I  did when I went to the doctors?

I don't know.  You never opened up to me.  How was I  supposed to know
when you hid as much from me as I hid  from you?

You really can be an arrogant bastard, Mulder.  

Attack, counter attack, Scully.  Isn't that our usual foreplay?

Where is the vial, Mulder?

In a safe place.

Where?  Or don't you believe I have any rights to it?  What  did you think
you were going to do with it.

It's evidence, Scully.  You know that.

Evidence of what?

Of what they did to you.  Of what they did to those women.  

I know what they did to me, Mulder.  I know what they  took.  I found
evidence of that in my own blood, the virus  they constructed.

We still are not certain of where that came from.  What  those cells are
yet. After everything, why refuse to see what  your own body even tells
you?

Human/ alien hybridization.

Yes.

No, Mulder.  We've had this discussion before.   It's beside  the point
don't you think?  You were wrong to keep this  from me.  Even with the
best of intentions.  It's my body  and what happened to it should be my
knowledge.  

And yours alone?

I can't have children, Mulder.  I know that.  I've known that  for some
time. This was my burden, my issue to deal with.   This isn't about
trust.  It's about privacy.  You violated that   by keeping this from
me.  Whether or not I already knew  isn't the issue here.  You made a
decision, a very personal  decision about me and didn't allow me any say
or choice in  that decision.  

What are you going to do?

I don't know.  I just don't know at this point.  You and I.   We are bound
by this elusive search for truth.  For justice.   I feel as if I'm locked
in this chain with you that can never  be broken even as our lives break
around us. But I know  with every fiber of my self that I've passed that
crossroad  and can only go foward with this.  It scares me, this feeling.

I feel it too, Scully.  We've fought so hard.  Lost so much.   Our search
isn't in vain.  I can't be.  It won't be.  I won't let  it be and neither
would you.  After all, how could I  disappoint a woman who talks to me
about chains?

Where is the vial, Mulder.

I'll take you.

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