Title: Already Knew
Author: M (Starbuk42@aol.com)
Rating: G
Category: M/S UST, VA
Spoilers: None
Summary: Being sure. (Mulder, First Person) Sequel to 'Obscured'
Archive: Gossamer, yes. Anywhere else, ask me first. I'll let you.
Disclaimer: Mulder, Scully and any other characters mentioned
from the show belong to CC, 1013 Productions, and Fox. They are
used without permission. This is for entertainment, not profit.
Feedback: Is more than graciously accepted. I will also accept
constructive criticism. And if you just want to tell me you read it,
I'd like that too. E-mail to Starbuk42@aol.com
Notes: This is the sequel to 'Obscured' which, if you missed, you
can find at my website. I think you'll be confused if you don't read
that first. BTW, it's seems interesting that the titles of these pieces
are kinda opposites, doesn't it? Oh, well.
If you'd like to read more of my fanfic, please visit my website:
http://members.aol.com/Starbuk42/
Enjoy!


Already Knew by M

I wanted to stay. I wanted to make her understand.

But I couldn't bear it because I feared I had said something wrong,
something she hadn't wanted to hear.

And as I walked away, I looked back once more. I saw the distance
in her stare, and I knew she was lost.

I never meant to hurt her. I never meant to make her upset.

I only meant to make her understand.

And I wonder if she really does. I wonder if she really knows.

I wonder.

I glide slowly into the darkness of night, the cold hitting my warm
skin.

I shudder as I slip into my car and lay my head against the steering
wheel.

The image of her standing there floats into my tired mind.

Her face blank, her lips parted slightly as her warm, blue eyes
stared deeply into mine and suddenly turned away.

That simple act made my heart go limp in my chest.

My face fell, and I could think of no more words to say.

I knew I had to leave.

And even as my feet began moving backwards, her expression
never changed.

There was still the blank, uncertain look painted across her face.

I didn't want to see that.

I sigh to myself as I lift my head.

And I look over only to see her sitting beside me now, just
watching me.

Confusion spreads across my face, and I try to form words. But
none will come out.

She displays a small, sad smile and lifts her hand to my cheek. And
I can't help but smile back slightly as her eyes capture mine.

Then, slowly, she draws my face towards hers and presses her soft,
sweet lips delicately against mine.

And in that moment I feel pure joy. I feel true love in her gentle
touch.

I don't ever want to let that feeling go.

My eyes slip shut as warmth spreads through my frigid body. But
when I open them, as suddenly as she had appeared, she is gone.

She is gone, and I am alone.

Alone with only the memory of her endearing kiss.

And I wonder now if I even had to tell her.

I wonder if I had to say the words.

And I realize that she understood all along.

I realize she already knew.


The End

For those of you who wanted more, I hope this helps. And if it
didn't, I'm sorry. But please send me feedback no matter what you
think, ok? And thanks for readin'!

M (Starbuk42@aol.com)